POST 49 #

righteo then. i have the time to update my blog so best do it.
i'll go through the points i last stated. its easier for me to remember where i am them and i dont bable to long.

1. so me and vish had to finish what we had. now it wasnt because either of us didnt like the other or anything like that, it is about mark inturupting and us not being able to move on. we ended badly i guess and even now ive only seen and spoken to him once but i now know everythings over there and ive moved along and i would have guessed he has as well.

2. yes college has returned. and okay i really have been so lazy the past month and im falling really far behind which is why i guess i hate it right now. not much more to say here.

3. the new guy. is now my amazing boyfriend. yes it was quick so what? it was kind of like love at first sight i guess. well it was for him, me it was at second because i didnt really remember him when i first saw him. but yes my new boyfriend is Paul Brown and i love him so much. it feels weird i guess to find someone so fast and have all thse feelings for them but i guess you never know what 'love at first sight' is until it actually happens to you. we've spent nearly every day together since we started meetin up again and then finally getting together. thinking off the top of my head the longest we've been apart has been 3 days so far. and i must say after that i was so desperate to see him i could have possibly cried myself to sleep if i had to wait any longer. hes everything i ever wanted and he treats me just right. hes so sensitive and he knows exactly how to make me smile. i know he's never going to hurt me because he knows how it feels to be treated in that way, and i dont even need to say im never going to hurt him because i know i couldnt lay a bad finger towards him even if i tried. we've had our petty arguments but there sorted out so quickly because we know what we have. and i do hope that it will never end because at the moment even a lifetime feels so short a time to be with him.

okay getting back to blogging..
4. new phone. Alcatel. peices of shit really but will get me through till i choose a nwe one and have the money for it.

5. and of course the family problems still exsist. sometimes i wish they would just leave for italy faster. am getting sick of waiting around for them to choose somewhere.

so blogging session over for today i think?
you can wake up now.
sorry to bore u.
goodnight

POST 48 #

well theres so much to write but im so tired i dont want to go into so much detail, but will bullet the main things.
1. me and vish are totally over, and havent spoken for nearly a month properly now.
2. im back at college now and i actually hate it in a way, not sure i want to do sports anymore, its boring me.
3. i may have found a new guy, really sweet, but just broken up with his girlfriend.
4. i have another new phone, my tocco lite went completely bust the other week and i lost all my contacts, still trying to get them back now.
5.just had such a crappy weekend with my family and am most likely have to do it all again next sunday with the ther half.
so when i get round to being back online i will explain most of them in more detail i guess. it may be boring, it may be interesting, who knows?

POST 47 #

so even in a month of not blogging i dont kave much to update. life has been pretty much the same every day for the last month; few parties, drinking at the pub, and hanging around with mates. only change i guess is that college has started again, and even thats not very exciting blogging. better start finding something interesting to blog about, and fairly fast! im starting to bore you people i think, im so sorry!!

POST 46 #

the party yesturday was mad. went to it, stayed the night, didnt sleep at all, stayed the whole day after went to mates for dinner and finally came home. was so mad, but unfortunatly i didnt get many photos, i just left my camera around and expected other to just click away but still didnt get many. ohh well, i didnt look good most the night anyways, had my hoody on.
so off on holiday in two days. said goodbye to my friends last night and really dont want to go now. just feels like im going to be gone such a long time, at least its going to be my birthday when i get back. really cant wait for it. just seeing all my friends again, they are my life at the moment. going to miss them so much.

POST 45 #

PINCH, PUNCH, FIRST DAY OF THE MONTH
so just six more days and im going to be on holiday. two and a half lovely weeks in america; five days in new york, week in orlando and a week in miami. i really want to get a nice golden tan this summer, darker than the others so it doesnt fade as quickly. i cant wait. obviously im going to miss all my friends because i've been having the time of my life recently and i have them to thank for it. they've kept me going through all my downs and still helping my to pull through.
still doing my teeth whitening routine, i have seen a difference but now its starting to slow down the changes. its obviously scraped off the main stains and i guess its now working on the tough ones. just a little further and at least i'll be happy with them again, and will slowly stop being so mad about brushing them after every meal i possibley can.
nails aregrowing well now. using a strengthener as well as having all my vitamin supplements everyday, including the ones for my hair. my hair seems to be growing still, much slower than it did when it was shorter but hopefully it keeps growing. i predicted it to grow another inch by november/december time, and hopfully by start of summer next year it will have grown to just about how far i'll be happy with again, and then next december be perfect length finally. feel like counting down the months, just one year from now will do my fine. i wont be dying it again untill september most likely, probably do it fresh for college next year.
so hopefully by start of summer next year, i'll have the tan i want, the nails i want and the hairs i want. only thing left, The Boobs!! i dont hate mine, like shape wise or shit, i just wish they were bigger. i wish i could just hav a boob job and im done, but two problems with that; i dont have the money, and theres no way mum would pay because she doesnt believe in changing body parts and stuff. helpfull or what!! i was thinking about trying out a product called 'perfect c' which sells a form of pills which increase your bust up to three cups, which is perfect. all i want is a 34C and i'll be perfectly happy. and they cost around £200 for a 6 month supply, which supposidly can increase at least one cup size by then, and its all natural. its always worth a try when you think, you're paying £3000 for a boob job and only £200 could work using pills and its more natural. just going to have to get a job, earn some money and buy them now.

POST 44 #

two more photography pictures, which this time i haven't edited because im not sure what effect to put on them. i was walking through the woods on the way to see my friends one afternoon and i thought, i dont have many bark'y photos.

POST 43 #

so im single again boys! me and my boyfriend finished yesturday because hes getting stressed out and ill. because most of my friends are guys he doesnt exactly trust them and its making him worry, so we ended it for now. and yes i do still like vish, some more everyday. we get along so well and he's the sweetest guy i've met in a while. just a few problems stoppping us though, his best mate mark likes me. and for boys thats a big deal so vish wont do anything in public because we keeping it on the down low. he likes me as well but because of the 'rule' thing that boys have with girls we cant really see eachother. we're both finding it really hard when we're out with our friends in a group because we both just want to be left alone. its like tonight, we're going to a little sort of party at my mates. theres going to be over twenty people there and we're only alowed in the front and back room so theres no way we're going to get any time alone tonight.